All the years we've spend together. You and me, me and you. Forever and ever.

Pictures, to make us never forget what we once had, and what we do have.

And i just cant wait,

to spend the rest of my life,

right here - by your side,

forever. 

Making memories, to take with me,

down under the day i die.

I will always love you,

my very best friend.

Ida <3

Miracles do happen. Just not to me.

Last night, it hit me, like a star falling from the sky - right down on me. Im speechless, i dont know what to do. I cant sleep, i cant concentrate, im all rapped up. I feel sick, because i dont know what else to feel.

The charger connected to my phone, i turn it on.

I walk down the stairs to get something to eat,

while my teddy bear is vibrating,

but i hear nothing.

I go to work.

I come home.

Im thinking,

its time to unplug that charger.

And when i do,

i fall, a thousand miles under ground. 

And what about what i want?

Tomorrow is a day to remember. Its Monday, and for most of us, no big deal. But for me, its a big test waiting at 10.30 in school. And guess what, i havent even bothered to open my book yet. 

I have this theory though, if its a C i want, ill make it by just listening during class. I wont have to study, because a C is equal to basic knowledge - and basic knowledge is something you should get from just attending the class. 

This theory has never been tested, but tomorrow it will. Because im sick and tierd of spending time on homework, during my spare time - where im supposed to be doing whatever i like. 

Maybe i should become a politician. Fight for the right of relaxing, when your home. Ive never understood this whole homework thing, 

im in school 8 hours a day,

when i get home, i barely have time to eat,

because i always have homework with me home from school.

And i thought that grown-ups had a hard time.

Hah.

In my ass. 

When your working, at least, you get off work, whenever you get off.

You dont get out of school, until graduation.

Im home, and ive never felt better.

Confirmation, was exactly what i was looking for. One that told me, im good enough. I am what i am, and there's people out there who loves me for it. I needed to know that i was living my life to the fullest, and no matter what it would take - i was willing to give it up for that one, confirmation.

And now, i finally understand how a weekend, that is not filled with parties, still can be a great weekend. And i realize why i still feel satisfied from just watching tv a friday night, when i could be at a club rocking it. Its because im done. 

Ive reached my goal and now, theres nothing that attracts me at clubs, nothing but having fun with my friends. Theres no more, i need, i want, i must...

Im done with one night stands,

done with getting way to wasted, 

done with being the dumb blonde,

and the easy one.

And i guess, i was right from the start,

this is the phase that will lead me down the path, of growing up.

And its true, that one saying,

"You dont grow up,

until you've learned how to be a child"

And things start to fall into place

Really, ive got nothing to complain about. Ive got everything i need and a little more. I have the money, the family, the grades - you name it. But still, its just like something is missing. How about happiness? 

You know, there is nothing that piss me off more than people who takes you for granted. Who knows that you'll do just about anything for them. Those who predict how you're gonna go about something, and that you'll stand by their side. 

And there is nothing worse than people who dont know what they got until they loose it. Perhaps, someone who takes advantage of your kindness shares the number one trophy of the worst things. 

Think about it, 

and im sure you'll see,

that i dont like you that much as you might think.