happy days and a happy new year from me to you <3

Maybe, finally, someone up there has seen me and thought - its her turn, to feel good, to be loved and to love back.

Its been a cold, but yet, so warm and nice day. Im steel freezing from the cold winter weather we're having, but inside, its like spring. A seed is growing to become a rose.

Tomorrow its New years eve, and its gonna be celebrated like never before. Ill be downtown Copenhagen, like ive always wished for. Ill be there, with the loves of my life and we're gonna rock it like no one has ever before. 

And fuck my born-bad-luck, tomorrow, im getting my new years kiss at 00.00. End of story. I dont care how many miles i have to run, how high up i have to fly, or how deep down i have to swim. Ill get it. I just hope, the right person will be standing there, next to me, because i only have 60 seconds to make it happen. 

Peace and love.

Tomorrow is the last day of the worst year, but its also the beginning of the best. 

A thoughtful night

Looking into your eyes still hurts. Thats simply why, i just dont do it anymore. 

Walking past, is still as nerve-breaking as it was the first time. 

Taking your hand, holding it tight, upsets me, because i know - you will be gone the next second. 

But what kills me the most, is being there, watching you, doing what you once did to me, to another girl.

Im not what i come off as, i am so much more and so much less. But i guess, yet, no one seems to see me for that person. They see me, as the one, they think i am. And the one wish, that someone would win me over and convince me theres good ones out there - never seem to come true. I want the good ones, who can bring out the best in me. 

Someone who actually gets to know me, and not the girl from the pictures.

Its Christmas, santa got the list but God never heard my prayers.

A fabulous night at IN. One of those nights, only possible to experience at the one and only - IN. 

A night, filled with surprises - good ones, and less good ones. But i must say, many things got done last night, that have been unfinished for too long. 

After a great Christmas, with the perfect gifts under the tree there was only one more thing i could wish for. You.

Its funny how i always seem to get what i want in the end, everything but you. And i think that is what keeps me holding on. I cant let go of the one thing, im not done with. And it bugs the shit out of me. But its alright though, this fight just makes my life a little bit more interesting than it would be without it.

And i must say, revenge is the best feeling. Being there, doing that, knowing - youre feeling the exact same thing i felt when you betrayed me brings sunshine to any gray day.

 -Ill keep stamping with my feet, 

doing it all night long,

to a badass techno song... -

My feet hurts. But i do not, i reapeat, i do not regret last night.

What if its true, that old love never dies? Theres a connection, im feeling, to you. A connection i cant explain nor know where i it came from. My only guess, is that its leftovers from our past.

So, what to do when those feelings pop up once more. Knowing how it ended the last time, not knowing if its gonna be the same this time. Take a shot or not to take a shot,

thats the question.

Christmas dreams

Im going to Miami and im getting a tatto from Ami. For real. That guy is the hottest thing my eyes has ever faced. To bad, he lives on the other side of the fucking globe. Sucks for me. But maybe, santa likes me this year - i can always wish for a mini-Ami for Christmas. 

Less than a week from now we'll all be overdosed with gifts, food and jingle bells rock. I cant believe its already Christmas time. Im still in October in my head. This past months have passed by like a Ferrari on Autobahn. Thats another thing on my list btw. 

What a perfect Christmas Eve that would be,

imagine me in the passanger seat of a red Ferrari, driven by Ami himself. Or even better, me driving Ami.