Zip it, aight?

Why cant i just SHUT UP and stop saying things that will only mess it up. Its so typical me, writing, speaking, without thinking. And woops, there it went, the words that werent supposed to get out. That i never really meant, that i hadnt given that much thought as i should have.
This weird behavior of mine, appears when i answer texts, speak on the phone or whenever im nervous.

But shit happens right?

And i guess, i need to learn how to accept myself,
so that others can learn to accept it too.

Because seriously, god, my mouth have caused trouble.
Maybe thats why i usually keep it shut whenever im around too many people?
Idk.

Once again, im wondering, and questioning, thinking and not trusting

I cant help to wonder, why he keeps on deleting all the proofs.
The only thing, that makes sense, is if hes hiding something. But why would he be hiding anything, and what is it hes hiding?
Cheating? Is that is? Am i there once again, letting my heart get crushed under the feet of another heartless boy?
If thats the case, Im out.

I just hope, its not. Because i dont want to end this already, im in love, like never before. And ask anyone in my surrounding, im happy.
I am actually, happy.

Turning around

Some people, would probably say ive totally lost my mind, gone crazy and need to get back on track. But hey, what if, im just going through one of those phases, becoming who i really am.

For years, ive been trying to be someone everybody else can love, and can be proud of. Ive spend every second of my life, making sure, im not doing anything to hurt anybody else, making sure, im doing whats right and not wrong.
Well, lately, ive started to realize, it wont make me happy though. I need to start thinking about myself, about what i want and about what makes me motivated. Because that is one thing for sure, im lacking right now - motivation. Dont have it, and its nowhere to be found.

So, how about, me turning into the rebel that ive always wanted to be. How about me, letting the person inside of me out, into the world, the person - who in most cases, would be bad in everyones eyes but my own. Would it make me happier? I think it would.

But it will put my future in danger, because if i would do exactly what i wanted, being the person, i really want to be - then skipping school would be my favorite subject.

And hey, only 46 days left <3

Just a thought about love

Lets switch sides, lets turn the game upside down and let me be the one leading the game you once created. I think, that would be an awesome thing to do.

Ive questioned, the need for love so many times. And i dont think i can even count on my fingers, how many times ive told everyone im gonna become a nune. But just like smoking, love is a hard habit to break.
After being with my boyfriend for a while now, ive realized, theres alot of cute, romantic and memorable moments, worth fighting for. But what about, all those times, you get disappointed at each other, get mad, jealous, and god knows what else. All the times you feel hurt, broken, sad. Are those moments, really worth, all the good moments?

A question, im not sure i wanna know the answer of.

Seriously though, i miss being single, because then - no one was ever controling me, i could do whatever whenever. I could flirt and have fun, and i was the one deciding when i had enough of one guy, to then move on to the next. No feelings involved, ever, and life was just great. Feeling lonely, was included, but still, you felt lonely in a good way.
Now, whenever im lonely, i miss my boyfriend and when i miss him, my mood goes down a couple of levels. Is that really the way we all live?

Right now, id say, fuck feelings, fuck being in love,
fuck getting hurt -
cheers to independence.

Xstatic was pretty motherfucking exciting,
but even better,
was that me and my boy,
had the best time ever.

Our 3 months, have been the best three months of my life.
And im still, so in love, thinking about him everyday,
dreaming about him everynight.

Oh, how happy i am right now <3

Its been a long day, but a good one though.

I havent really realized how jealous i could be. Or how mad i could get, over nothing.
Neither did i know, my instincs could be wrong.
Now, i just need to take control of this new me, because if i dont, i might not only lose myself, but i might lose the most precious thing i have.
The boy <3

But how do i learn to trust,
someone who cheats in every game he plays?

This one goes out, to all the parts of my heart

I dont know, what i would have done without you guys.
Whenever im down, you have a way to lift me up.

And just like old love never dies,
neither does old friendship <3

I wish words could describe,
what my best friends,
means to me.

great weather and weird thoughts

Its spring break and god its shows on the weather.
Im loving every second of it, and i feel so in love. Not so much with my boyfriend, but more, with spring. And i guess, this great feeling inside of me, makes me do crazy things.

Last night, i sat in my car, on my way home from sofia. And all of a sudden, i got this crazy idea. To take the car, over the ocean, to my boyfriends house. Now, keep in mind, ive never driven a car in denmark, neither have i went by car to my boyfriends house, and it was 11 p.m.
But crazy me, drove past the last exit in sweden, over the bridge (which was the most amazing view ever), out on the roads, trying to find home.

It took 35 minutes.

And what a rush!

I think, the party-princess is back

In less, than 30 school days, ill be running around, with my white hat singing about graduation. Ill be drunk as hell, and ill be enjoying life to its fullest.
Oh, i just cant wait!

Another thing i just cant wait for, is friday. On friday, im going out with my girlfriend - the one and only, IDA! We're gonna rock it until we drop it. Ill be partying like im single again. So watch out.

The friday after, which means, in a week and two days, its Xstatic baby. With my glowing eyes and amazing hair, ill be stamping my feet to a techno beat.

<3<3<3

Skatteboo <3

Im yours