Jukebox instead of hardcore?

IN - think again.

But... I'm not going to be the one who judges before I've tried it out. Next weekend, here i come. And maybe, the amount of drugs will decrease, since dancing crazy with X is not quite the same unless you have hardcore music in the background. 

Then again, for real, food? Radio-chillout music? Could be good. 

Doubt it will become better than from what it really is.

And yes, Im a criticizer. 

A different kind of Saturday night.

A best friend, with someone she's not supposed to be with? 

Closed doors.

Half-empty glasses. 

Music loud enough, to not be able to hear shit.

But my eyes were still open,

and my mind was functioning. 

And not even money can buy forgiveness in this case. 

Even though, I'm an expert in overreacting, 

a best friend should know. 

But, lucky me. 

The bus ride on my way home had a few surprises it self. 

One of them was eye-candy.

And the eye-candy kept talking,

with a sweet voice to soothe my ears. 

Suddenly, things seemed ok again. 

I found my way to IN this weekend too.

And the weekend has just started. 

Report straight from bed, about IN. Because there's where things happen.

It seemed like one of those lame nights, with too many underaged, bad music and irritating people. But then Dj Sash came and things turned to the better. Wow. 

I had sex on the dance floor,

was in contact with X,

and walked away with my best friends boyfriend.

I love when it sounds so dirty. 

But i love it even more when its true.

Nighty night. 

Thinking things might not be so bad.

As my world is falling apart, im still standing. And as everything is shaking, ill be the last one to fall.

I know, perfection is an illusion for everyone but myself.

I can only be perfect for me - and nobody else. 

Give me a bad boy with the fries and coke to go, please.

I want the most bad one of them all. I want the one with a big record and tattoos. The one who drinks to much and drive crazy. The one with no education but still has the brain. And i want him to be sent in a package right to my door. Thank you very much.

Maybe not. But I do want someone crazy who can make my boring life exciting. Because im crazy sick of always following the rules and doing exactly what the ones up there tells me to.

I wanna be that teenage rebel i never was. And i want someone who can accept me being that rebel. Debating in my head, i came to the conclusion that only someone twice as crazy can do that. And who fits better in that picture than a gangster? Plus, a real one usually has those big muscles and nice body and they can protect you like your own body guard. Nothing is sexier than that. 

A busy weekend with no monday as result.

I'm totally wiped out from this weekend. And no, i did not go to school today. 

Interesting story there actually. I went to our first class - at 10.30. But no body was there. Hm? 

Then i realized that our psychology was cancelled and i went back home. THATS were i made the huge mistake. Going home, after being in town first is not a good idea. Because who seriously has the energy to go back? Not me. 

Friday was a good day with a great night.

Saturday... well lets just put it like this, i had fun until i got home - at 10 p.m. 

Sunday was a day with shopping all night long. Not a recommended thing to combine with a bad hang over. 

And even though i told myself to never drink again...

there's a weekend coming up and ME is NOT working.

 

STUPID ALLERGIES!

Waking up in the morning with a huge face and small swollen eyes is NOT acceptable. Damn cats and damn allergies. 

The good thing about it was that I had a reason to stay at home. Woho. 

Sometimes i wonder, if there is a God, why does he take everything i love away from me? 

Now, i found out im allergic to milk. Fuck that! And me... who LOVES hot chocolate during winter. But those days are over. 

Shit me.

Tomorrow, its friday. Finally.

Seriously, why does the week have to suck dick?

Wednesday and only two more days in school. Come on guys, we can do this. Because the weekend will make the week worth it. 

Friday night me and Ida are going to have our Sleepover that we've been talking about for God knows how long. It was something we used to do when we were young and a sleepover was all we needed. These days we're busy busy with things and no more time for being at home. 

And btw, congrats to the Doctor Ida. Enjoy your date tomorrow ;) I'm not jealous, no... not at all. A doctor, good looking and so sweet. Who would want that?

Saturday night its Ladies night and the dress code is... PINK!!! 

So if you see 8 tumbling Pink girls walking down the streets of Malmö on saturday night, it's probably us.

And we broke our record

Saturday night turned out not quite as planned but still, quite good. 

After a long day at work for both me and Ida we decided to go out and celebrate her one week of being single. Yes! Dinner for two, grilled salmon and some white wine with that - mhm. Havent tried it? Do it! But what is a celebration without dessert? So we bought ourselves waffles with hot chocolate sauce and ice cream. Delicious!

After that we had a little after party at IN. Which surprisingly turned out to be a short visit. We were both tired and wanted to go home at 2.30 a.m. I know... WHAT?! But yes, we went back to Sweden to sleep. I was home at a decent time for once and i broke my IN record in leaving early. Have never happened before - me getting home before 6 in the morning?! Hm.

And I'm still amazed how one girl can always make me smile, how we always have fun together and how we never need anybody else to make our nights unforgettable. Soulmates, meant to be and friends forever.

Summer has come to an end. Its over, gone and no more. It's all fall and winter coming up, no matter if we want to or not. 

Usually, I'd say, lets make a countdown until next spring and lets get ready for Summer 09. But for once, I'm not going to do that. For once, fall and winter doesnt sound so bad. Despite the bad weather, its a period of time where you have a reason to stay in bed, a reason to watch tv all day and another reason to just stay inside. 

Today the weather is just horrible and i found my way out of it. Close the curtains and the door, light a candle and sit down - relax. 

Life is not so bad,

if you do something about it.

And thats exactly what im about to do.

A little too much, a little too fast

Headache, stomach pain and all other symptoms of stress. Maybe i work just a little too much, and maybe my grades are a little too good for me to be able to be happy at the same time. But once youre in the circle, its hard as hell to get out. What i mean is that im used to getting a certain amount of money every month and im used to a "well done" from the teachers. 

Not getting that, and not getting it on purpose - how could that make me happier? Well... i dont know, but what i do know is that i cant keep doing this bullshit anymore. 

Work or school, take a pic - both cant be a "well done. " At least not with a happy face. 

Fuck im sick of life. Why cant every night be like a Friday night? 

Why cant school be in an inspirational environment, with fun stuff?

Why does every thing has to be so BORING?!

Sick, sick and sick.

Tired.

And everything SUCKS.

THe dot over the I would be,

2900 happiness is not available for Swedish viewers. 

WHATS UP WITH THAT?!

And now im coming back down.

I bet everyone has been waiting for this one ;) I know i know... probably not. But GOD let me pretend for a while.

When i left of, i was crazy in love and flying on pretty pink clouds way up high. I must 

say, that feeling is the best ever. Yes, love is the best drug there is. Plus, it's completely healthy too (until you get your heartbroken which can lead to suicide - not too healthy, no). 

But this time, im back down to earth. And i've given it a lot of thoughts and I've realized - what i love the most is the falling in love part. The rest is basically expensive, waste of time, a ticking bomb and pointless - until you find that ONE that you want to spend the rest of your life with. So this is why i decided to stay single. 

Nothing wrong with Dennis, oh no - he has it all except... something that I'm longing for and im not quite sure what. I just now it's not right. So i might as well keep on living my happy single life with my awesome single friends.

And btw, Ida has now joined the squad! To bad Henrik, she's all mine now and there's no taking back. 

GO SINGLE!

Where's the alcohol at?

Because tonight Im so inspired. 

It's bowling on the schedule tonight. And even though Im not playing, it will be fun. Im sure. It's me and all my girls, and i guess we'll be playing against some guys. Anyways, we're gonna rock it as usual. The bad thing is, i work tomorrow morning at 9. That SUCKS, so i'll be the party pooper tonight. Believe it or not. 

Tomorrow night Im going on mine and Dennis's first real date. And if i were you, i would be jealous. On the menu there will be movies and dinner. Feels like one of those dates back in the days. Cute, or what?

But for some reason, there will be no clubbing. 

What's happening to me dude? Seriously. 

A weekend without clubbing, what kind of weekend is that?

Hopefully, a great one.

The drug is love. And damn it feels good.

Im walking on pink clouds. Im high up there, and i never wanna leave again.

Im amazed about how fast I've fallen, and how good it feels. Because it does, and it feels so right and  now, i just hope that it stays this way. My heart can not take another fall without a catch. Not right now, not this year.

So yes, of course im scared to death. But it's a chance i have to take and a thing i have to do. Because I'd rather regret falling than regret i never tried.

To the love story,

how cute isn't this?

Bored to death at work and I decided to text him. 5 min later, he's there. A huge hug, another kiss and a Big Red Rose.

That kind of romance is what i want to brag about. 

Where has this guy been all my life?

<3<3<3

Today goes by slow... crazy slow.

Another day of over sleeping, and now I decided to just go to Denmark a little bit earlier than i have to. Im going shopping - as always. 

I just got paid and i need to spend the money, thats the way it goes. 

But im not feeling too good today. Don't know why, but i just have that awkward feeling in my stomach and it wont go away. Plus Im having a bad hair day. 

Summation:

Im having a bad day.